I couldn't talk. I lied down staring at the ceiling unable to move any part of my body and I started to think " I passed away, didn't I?,"
I'm not dead. I don't think I am.
I heard the door opening and Faris's voice kept calling on my name. He shacked my body trying to wake me up but I didn't respond. I heard footsteps coming from the stairs . I knew that It was my sister because of her noisy flip flop.
"Shfeeha Rawa? Shsawait feeha?," Said Dalal lowering herself to sit right next to me to check on my pulse.
" Walla masawait feha shay yait shft'ha 6ay7a," Faris replied. I guess he was scared , I can tell from his tone.
Dalal hates Faris. He hates her too! I know that there's a reason behind this but whenever I try to open the subject with them they shut me up telling me that my "wild imagination" has to take the blame. I wasn't imagining, It's obvious. They hated each other for a reason and I will find it out one day.
The strange thing is that Faris never keeps a secret away from me but why is he keeping the "Dalal" one ?
Anyway, Faris said that he's going to my upstairs room to bring his mobile to call my mother and Dalal went to bring me water I don't even know why.
Now I'm all by myself still staring at the ceiling laying on the cold almost wet floor. I can smell the dettol I bet my mother cleaned the house before leaving.
I tried to get myself up, tried to move but I couldn't make it, tried to scream but my voice was somehow gone . I can see , I can hear and I even can blink but why not talk? I needed to talk, to scream , to say something.
The back of my head started to ache again. Why me ? why is this happening to me? from all of the people on earth god chose me but why?
Dalal finally came back. She started to give me water. I can't drink, can't swallow. "will I die starving?," I started to think. I brushed the thoughts away. I didn't want to be concerned about silly things.
She mistakenly pour the whole glass of water on my shirt. She's making everything worse. I wanted to punch her not because of what she did, but because I was really mad and scared but I can't move so I didn't punch her. Even if I'm moving I won't punch her , I'm the version of a quiet, calm and peaceful girl.
Faris came down saying that he called my mother and she'll arrive soon. I felt his soft big hands holding me, he carried me to put me on the couch.
"wa akheeran a7ad 7as feene," I thought .
Dalal said something about the weather being cold and headed to the guests room. I wasn't giving attention to what she was saying, I was already sinking in the river of my thoughts. Faris came to sit next to me in the same couch and played with my curls.
"I don't know if you're listening to me or not but I want you to stay strong. I'll be right next to you like I've always been . I'll pick you up when you fall down. I love you not as my cousin or as my best friend ,no. I love you as the caring beautiful sensitive girl. I LOVE YOU" I felt warm water drops in my hand, what was it? I realized that it was tears. Not mine of course, It was Faris's. He's crying, Faris is actually crying. I've never seen him crying he has always kept his feelings for himself. He's in love with me.
For me? Love is a huge word. I've never expected anybody to share the love word with me, my heart started to beat faster I was scared and happy at the same time.
We've always called each other names, he saw my ugliest faces. I've never expected him to love me that way, I cried with a emotionless face.
"Reeh you're crying, you can listen," He said while drying my face with a napkin.
"see, I want to ask you questions; if your answer is yes blink once and if it's no blink twice," He was talking really fast, this is the excited Faris I'm sure.
"should we tell anybody about your power?," He asked still talking fast. The question is really hard. I decided to blink twice.
"okay then I'll keep my mouth shut. Is any part of your body in pain?," he said and I blinked yes.
"Oh god, where? Your stomach?," he said. I blinked twice meaning no.
"your back?,"he kept asking .I blinked twice.
"Then it's got to be your head, right?," he finally said It the moment Dalal came in to the living room saying : what a freak. Who are you talking to?
"I'm a smart freak," he sighed and explained the situation.
"Sometimes you can be a bit genius ,"she said laughing
"So is it your head?," Faris asked again and I answered yes.
The door's bell rang joined with loud knockings
"It has to be mama Mariam," Dalal said running to open it.
Faris got closer to me .
"Do you love me?," He asked whispering .
I was getting ready to answer him when dalal cut the moment off by screaming "help,"
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